I passed the 14 week mark yesterday—I'm still waiting and waiting for the burst of energy everyone has promised will come. As I sit here wondering if this run-down, flu-like state has become permanent, I find myself constantly contemplating the idea of permanency. It is mind-boggling to realize that for the rest of my life I will be a mother. One summer morning I watched as one line became two and I was no longer the "me" I had always been….just like that. Pregnancy certainly prepares you for the colossal transition that is taking place—although temporary, the laundry list of symptoms I've experienced have been unequivocally running my life and replacing so many of my old ways of being that I am left feeling like a stranger to myself. The symptoms will fade, I know, but they represent the journey toward motherhood, something that will change me for life.