If you burst into tears while listening to Kanye West in the car…..you might be pregnant. That's right. Last night I had a ridiculous pregnancy moment. I was driving back to Massachusetts in the rain, in the dark, during rush hour (read: miserable) after spending the day with a dear friend in Connecticut, when Kanye's "Stronger" came on the radio. I immediately turned that sh*t up…..and then burst into tears. I figured this had to be documented before my pregnant mind forgets this hilarious moment. Yes, in the middle of traffic I had a life-affirming moment—I suddenly felt like a powerful warrior woman rather than a miserable, complaining mess of a pregnant woman. And though I know Kanye wasn't really singing to me personally, or talking about pregnancy in the slightest, I could've sworn he was. "Now that don't kill me/ can only make me stronger/ I need you to hurry up/ 'cause I can't wait much longer." Clearly Kanye knows I feel impatient to meet this child growing inside me who has morphed me into a stronger person than I've ever had to be. Right? I don't know, but I feel like a new woman after that drive. And I'm sure one day my child will appreciate hearing the story about when his/her mama resolved to buck up and be a warrior mama.
After recounting this crazy story to my husband when I got home, I asked him if he'd whisper "that don't kill you, can only make you stronger" in my ear when I'm giving birth, or maybe play the song…..or would it be totally inappropriate if those were my first words to our baby? He wasn't sure where his real wife had gone, but he was sure that when she returned she'd shoot down this crazy lady's ideas and insist that she had in no way changed her mind about her "new agey/mediation/yogi music and nag champa candles" plan for the delivery.
Not the actual music video, because I'm too impatient to wait for that to load.